confusion

Its hard to wake up and go on when you know there is so much pain and your struggling with tears. do you show the world the weakness or keep going? how far can you get till the past catches you? is it better to face the past than to keep it hidden in the closet like old clothes. i dream that one day it will all be clear. how do i know what i want if i have everything? how do i know what i don't. how do i chose between the old and the new? its been forever till i have my emotions come to light. how do someone who been through a lot and sucked it up , lets it out? I'm tired of hidden her in the closet when she wants to be heard. will i ever have the courage the power to let the world see her. how do i stand tall when my knees are starting to cave. i guess the only thing left is that i breath and take it one step at a time.confusion that probably never leave